Hey readers!
It has been a long time since i last penned(or typed) down my thoughts on a particular subject here, but since i adopted a new "if you have something to say, write it" philosophy i'm pretty sure i'll be putting up a lot more posts nowadays!
So for this post my main concern will be the idea of having "feelings", now when i talk about feelings, i mean the unexplainable sense of loss/despair/void/sadness after reading/watching any form of literature, and that includes story-plots of certain games [ie. FINAL FANTASY]. In other words, not ordinary emotions. Let me put it out there first, i "feel" a lot, like it gets to the point where i just go into depression because of that. Okay I know its like a phase and all but i just can't help it. During this phase all i want to do is just tear up and listen to sad songs all day and think about that particular thing that causes me to have "feels". One frustrating aspect of this is when you just want to share your "feels" with someone, as if overcome by some odd evangelical zeal to drag someone down this black hole of emptiness with you, but nobody really cares and sympathizes with you. It is selfish i know but that is just what "feels" can make someone do. Most of the time i have "feels" on my own because my friends usually don't sympathize with me. I have,however, found a solution to all this: TUMBLR. This social network has so far been a God-send for me as it is an outstanding outlet for my feels-tap to flow freely without judgement -- AND PEOPLE THERE ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND WHICH MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!!!
Now that i've laid the context of the idea of "feelings", let me just share with you the thing that has driven me to write this post in the first place: Big Hero 6. This movie is a Disney movie, HOWEVER, do not underestimate it by assuming that it is going to be about some princess getting saved by her prince .NOPE. Instead, as exemplified by the previous Disney-hit 'Frozen', the company seems to be moving away from all the PrincessxPrince love stories and is exploring more deeper and relatable themes in its movies, thus enabling the movie to be appealing to a wide range of audiences! Big Hero 6 centers around Hiro Hamada, a teenage robotics genius who graduated from high school at age 13[lmao i was still a retarded foetus then but anw] and his adventures with Baymax, a Personal Healthcare Companion, invented by his awesome bro Tadashi Hamada.
~~~SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT~~~
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So the feels first started when you know the university freaking exploded because of a bomb in it and TADASHI FUCKING DIES IN THE EXPLOSION, leaving behind poor Hiro on his own. Now Hiro and his bro were already orphans because their parents died when Hiro was just 3, and now losing his bro --- dayum thats tough. Both of them lived with their super funny aunt Cass(which was excellent comic relief btw) but the fact remains, Hiro had no direct family left. The beginning scene of the movie made one thing extremely clear: Both brothers were damn close as, lets face it, they were the only direct family they had, although their age gap is like 5-7 years(just like me and my older brother haha...) So when that bond had to be severed by the cold, cruel hands of death my heart literally broke. It was really emotional and sad for me to see Hiro get all depressed and cry due to the loss of his big brother, because i can sympathize with him on a deeper level than some as i do have an older brother with a similar age gap. It made me start to think many "what ifs" like what if my bro suddenly passed away or something like that and i had a rather strong reaction to those hypothetical scenarios which was really frightening to me. Pretty sure i appreciated my bro[regardless of how annoying and retarded he is sometimes lel] like 38374580490723958091 times more now after that movie. When Baymax sacrificed himself in the portal-world for Hiro to save that woman i swear i cried. Sacrifice, i truly believe, is one of the greatest forms of love in this world and for a robot to have demonstrated that to a human boy really touched me[+ DID I MENTION THE ROBOT WAS CREATED BY TADASHI AND THE FIRST THING TADASHI SAID WHEN HE GOT THE ROBOT WORKING WAS TO LET HIS LIL BRO SEE IT??]. And of course my friends didn't get me which made me look like a depressed tortoise in his shell.@
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~~~END OF SPOILERS FOR BH6~~~
Another thing that gets me all the time is love. Be it in the form of romance or sacrifice. These two elements tend to get me to experience really powerful feelings whenever i encounter them. The first time i ever felt these strong emotions was,in Naruto, the scene after Naruto learns of his beloved sensei's death and is trying to eat ice-cream to console himself but he can't and instead tears just start cascading down his cheeks, dripping onto the floor below. That was the first ever instant i ever felt like crying after watching an anime. The second one was after i watched SAO and had some serious withdrawal symptoms like really really bad ones. I even went into a full on emo mode for 3 days straight in school which scared my friends lol. Then subsequently THG, Divergent, ACE ATTORNEY EVEN, and finally Big Hero 6. Okay for ace attorney its not much of romance or sacrifice but more of me just REALLY REALLY REALLY SHIPPING AND LIKING THE GAME AND CHARACTERS IN THE GAME OKAY. The others just have story-plots that have very poignant moments elegantly weaved into them that just get me. hard.A thing to note about the state of having feels is that it sets the mind up for serious reflection, a state of stillness that can only be accomplished with a dry soul. Whenever i get feels i seem to learn a lot about life in general and they strongly influence the way i think. For example, with BH6 and Naruto, i slowly understand about the pain and suffering due to the loss of a loved one, though as of yet i have not experienced it, the effects are strong enough to give someone like me a slight taste of the anguish. As such i believe that "feelings" serve not only to force people to get in touch with their inner emotions but also to provide an avenue for learning and the development of sympathy for others(which i feel is seriously lacking in today's society).
ALSO,
It is not very common to see guys cry or have strong emotions in public/ in front of friends because of social-gender stereotypes. I'm straight yet i don't see a need to oppress our emotions to fit the perceptions of others. I'm extremely sensitive(i've been told many times before) but i don't mind, i mean, at least i can get in touch with my core emotions more often than you so who is the real winner here[?!?!]
So that concludes my post for today, hope it was a good read :D
BYE!!
PS. BAEmax
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"It is all right to cry, crying is a natural response to pain"
-Baymax, Big Hero 6
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