"Feelings" *Spoiler Alert*

Hey readers!

It has been a long time since i last penned(or typed) down my thoughts on a particular subject here, but since i adopted a new "if you have something to say, write it" philosophy i'm pretty sure i'll be putting up a lot more posts nowadays!

So for this post my main concern will be the idea of having "feelings", now when i talk about feelings, i mean the unexplainable sense of loss/despair/void/sadness after reading/watching any form of literature, and that includes story-plots of certain games [ie. FINAL FANTASY]. In other words, not ordinary emotions. Let me put it out there first, i "feel" a lot, like it gets to the point where i just go into depression because of that. Okay I know its like a phase and all but i just can't help it. During this phase all i want to do is just tear up and listen to sad songs all day and think about that particular thing that causes me to have "feels". One frustrating aspect of this is when you just want to share your "feels" with someone, as if overcome by some odd evangelical zeal to drag someone down this black hole of emptiness with you, but nobody really cares and sympathizes with you. It is selfish i know but that is just what "feels" can make someone do. Most of the time i have "feels" on my own because my friends usually don't sympathize with me. I have,however, found a solution to all this: TUMBLR. This social network has so far been a God-send for me as it is an outstanding outlet for my feels-tap to flow freely without judgement -- AND PEOPLE THERE ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND WHICH MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!!!

Now that i've laid the context of the idea of "feelings", let me just share with you the thing that has driven me to write this post in the first place: Big Hero 6. This movie is a Disney movie, HOWEVER, do not underestimate it by assuming that it is going to be about some princess getting saved by her prince .NOPE. Instead, as exemplified by the previous Disney-hit 'Frozen', the company seems to be moving away from all the PrincessxPrince love stories and is exploring more deeper and relatable themes in its movies, thus enabling the movie to be appealing to a wide range of audiences! Big Hero 6 centers around Hiro Hamada, a teenage robotics genius who graduated from high school at age 13[lmao i was still a retarded foetus then but anw] and his adventures with Baymax, a Personal Healthcare Companion, invented by his awesome bro Tadashi Hamada.


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So the feels first started when you know the university freaking exploded because of a bomb in it and TADASHI FUCKING DIES IN THE EXPLOSION, leaving behind poor Hiro on his own. Now Hiro and his bro were already orphans because their parents died when Hiro was just 3, and now losing his bro --- dayum thats tough. Both of them lived with their super funny aunt Cass(which was excellent comic relief btw) but the fact remains, Hiro had no direct family left. The beginning scene of the movie made one thing extremely clear: Both brothers were damn close as, lets face it, they were the only direct family they had, although their age gap is like 5-7 years(just like me and my older brother haha...) So when that bond had to be severed by the cold, cruel hands of death my heart literally broke. It was really emotional and sad for me to see Hiro get all depressed and cry due to the loss of his big brother, because i can sympathize with him on a deeper level than some as i do have an older brother with a similar age gap. It made me start to think many "what ifs" like what if my bro suddenly passed away or something like that and i had a rather strong reaction to those hypothetical scenarios which was really frightening to me. Pretty sure i appreciated my bro[regardless of how annoying and retarded he is sometimes lel] like 38374580490723958091 times more now after that movie. When Baymax sacrificed himself in the portal-world for Hiro to save that woman i swear i cried. Sacrifice, i truly believe, is one of the greatest forms of love in this world and for a robot to have demonstrated that to a human boy really touched me[+ DID I MENTION THE ROBOT WAS CREATED BY TADASHI AND THE FIRST THING TADASHI SAID WHEN HE GOT THE ROBOT WORKING WAS TO LET HIS LIL BRO SEE IT??]. And of course my friends didn't get me which made me look like a depressed tortoise in his shell.@
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Another thing that gets me all the time is love. Be it in the form of romance or sacrifice. These two elements tend to get me to experience really powerful feelings whenever i encounter them. The first time i ever felt these strong emotions was,in Naruto, the scene after Naruto learns of his beloved sensei's death and is trying to eat ice-cream to console himself but he can't and instead tears just start cascading down his cheeks, dripping onto the floor below. That was the first ever instant i ever felt like crying after watching an anime. The second one was after i watched SAO and had some serious withdrawal symptoms like really really bad ones. I even went into a full on emo mode for 3 days straight in school which scared my friends lol. Then subsequently THG, Divergent, ACE ATTORNEY EVEN, and finally Big Hero 6. Okay for ace attorney its not much of romance or sacrifice but more of me just REALLY REALLY REALLY SHIPPING AND LIKING THE GAME AND CHARACTERS IN THE GAME OKAY. The others just have story-plots that have very poignant moments elegantly weaved into them that just get me. hard.A thing to note about the state of having feels is that it sets the mind up for serious reflection, a state of stillness that can only be accomplished with a dry soul. Whenever i get feels i seem to learn a lot about life in general and they strongly influence the way i think. For example, with BH6 and Naruto, i slowly understand about the pain and suffering due to the loss of a loved one, though as of yet i have not experienced it, the effects are strong enough to give someone like me a slight taste of the anguish. As such i believe that "feelings" serve not only to force people to get in touch with their inner emotions but also to provide an avenue for learning and the development of sympathy for others(which i feel is seriously lacking in today's society).

ALSO,
It is not very common to see guys cry or have strong emotions in public/ in front of friends because of social-gender stereotypes. I'm straight yet i don't see a need to oppress our emotions to fit the perceptions of others. I'm extremely sensitive(i've been told many times before) but i don't mind, i mean, at least i can get in touch with my core emotions more often than you so who is the real winner here[?!?!]

So that concludes my post for today, hope it was a good read :D
BYE!!



PS. BAEmax
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"It is all right to cry, crying is a natural response to pain"
-Baymax, Big Hero 6

Graduation/Bittersweet

"Parting is such sweet sorrow"
 -Juliet from RnJ
AND
Mr Paul Edward Osgodby, my dearest sec 4 English teacher.

So if haven't inferred from the title i actually graduated! Now the thing is i always looked forward to graduating from this school, but now that i just did i'm already regretting to have thought that way before. It made me not only sad but it made me reflect all that i've been through in BP in order to answer the question of "Why" am i sad? The answer is simple.

Memories.

Distant, tiny droplets from a passing cloud
Cascade gently down the threads in the sky
Pelting down, into the soil of my earth.
Weaving into tendrils
Blooming in the leaves.
Moisture may leave, but what remains
Is the vigour of a tree
Ready
To face the fog, of a future
Unknown.

I've been thinking about crafting another poem ever since i left my last night study two days ago, and i've finally completed it! I've also decided to take a walk down memory lane and thus i'm about to recount all the things that constitutes my BPian-Experience...

Secondary 1 - Foetus

I more or less categorize this stage of my life as foetus simply because i was still a foetus -- just out of primary school. My passion for Chinese was still burning strong and i still was round and chubby as a fishball.

you can pretty much tell which one i WAS. and i thought i was a legitimate coolkid98 -cringes uncontrollably-. One truly memorable thing back then was my epic English teacher-- Madam Jee. She was very strict and super-duper formal with all her lessons like she even had pre-lesson requirements before she would be willing to even start:

1. Ensure fanspeed is 2

2. Ensure the floor is spick-and-span

3. Ensure all bags are on the floor

4. Ensure all EL Lecture notebooks are on the table.

Her lessons were good i'm not gonna lie but it felt like i was in some posh university/educational institute for two years haha. Our class didn't hate her in fact we loved her very much! To the point where we couldn't help but host a mock-EL lesson with Keith as our teacher after school one day. It was funny as heck. But these are the little things that help make a teacher a memorable wouldn't you agree? I also didn't exactly have a group of friends i hung out with, except Jonathan haha we were literally nerds-united[COOL NERDS BTW]. He was also the one to introduce me to the whole ace attorney game franchise and OMG IT CHANGED MY LIFE---BUT ONLY LIKE 3 YEARS LATER WHEN I GOT REALLY OBSESSED AND AHHHHHH.

Anyway, that year my home econs partner was Mahn Teng. Being a vegetarian she couldn't eat like 99% of the food we made in class so that made her by default the best home econs partner bc FOOD. I was also surprisingly good at DnT? Like my drawings were crap but i always got 8/10 for my assignments and i don't even know how i did it. Chinese lessons were a blast too because my teacher was Zhuo lao shi and she was like bilingual which meant that she WAS THE PERFECT CHINESE TEACHER, oddly enough she reminds me of the hosts of your typical channel 8 chinese travel-documentary TV programmes you see nowadays! I also became a councilor that year-end which paved my road to EXCO-ness and a hell lot of stress yet powerful lessons of friendship and leadership learnt. I became a fencer that year too and met my fencing mates who, unbeknownst to me, would become so close friends with me in the years to come. My lit lessons that year were interesting to say the least, the two texts that we were taught contained vulgarities and my whole class, being the immature twerps that we all were back then, couldn't get over them. The second book was quite graphic in nature though i mean the guy got smashed in the face with a bat for heaven's sake if that isn't tragic enough for a 13 year-old to read about as an examinable text i don't know what is.

Secondary 2 - Post-Foetus

I'm not gonna lie, this was the period of time where i felt like i had become less-foetusy though a hint of it still remained. This was the year i actually gravitated towards a group of people in my class -- Ita Wah Lou. With me and Azizul being the only two guys in a group of 7. We were tight and we were hella rad HAHA. The group had Me, Azizul, Elene, Dorcas, Lee Yen, Lydia and Nameera and we always ate together during recess and our favourite past-time was throwing shade all over the place and gossiping to our hearts content muahaha. This is a pic of us before and after:

Dorcas is gonna kill me for this but this is MY BLOG :DDDD

Also this year we had this subject called Inter-Disciplinary Project Work aka IPW. So my group was known as the Happy-Tree-Friends for REALLY unknown reasons but we just stuck to that anyway! Our IPW project title was known as "Ordures Tableu" or something which was basically "Rubbish Table" translated into some other language and we thought it sounded way cool haha. We really fooled around and laughed wayy too much during all the DnT and IPW lessons(we were also selected to present our rubbish table idea to some entrepreneur guy but we turned it down because we were all too lazy)

                                      

Please don't mind my awkward pose, i was still post-foetus REMEMBER.
Also this was the last year i got to be part of an amazing class known as 201'12 #201Lives2Own. We did some pretty amazing things together and i loved all of the people in that class whom i've become friends with. 

After 2 years we still look like such twerps ;) PS. Missing some souls whom couldn't make it in time for the photoshoot, we still love you haha!

Secondary 3 & 4 - Seniorhood and the journey to Os

This was a time where i was fresh out of a total foetus and actually became a senior in my school.
I was totally unprepared and not ready for this.
My first encounter with "A.Maths" left me bedazzled and confused all at the same time and i became an EXCO of the student council. This was also the year that many epic things happened, and i shall elaborate on everyone of them:

1. Printed Melodies
2. EXCO-ness
3. AMaths
4. *We change the name too often we dont have a fixed word* clan
5. 304/404
6. Bio-group/gang
7. Fencerz
8. Teachers
9. Close friends
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1. Printed Melodies
This was a group formed at the back of the class known as 304 as we realised that we had a talent for singing so beautifully it made everyone around us cry tears of appreciation and wonder.
NAH
We couldn't actually sing but we tried. We just loved to do the most random crap and it was a hella fun time but then i had to move away because my results were bad[curse you amaths] and we had to be separated :(((. Those two people still became my close friends York Tat and Jessmine. I mean they even had me eat oreos with toothpaste in them with saltwater-water afterwards like omg best friends RIGHT?!?! HAHAHA. Through them i also met my friend Jia Wen who is incredibly unique to say the least :P

2. EXCO-ness
I became Head Of Liaison of the 31st student council and met my wonderful EXCO members who learnt how to put up with my annoying-ness and eternal proscrastination cum lateness in handing up proposals and stuff but we became pretty good friends. Also i was the only guy in the EXCO but then it didn't really matter in the end we still worked together and got scolded together(by each other too lmao ELIA) and we pulled through a whole year of event planning and execution. I wanna thank Elia, Nadiah, Wen Qi, Pamela, Natalie, Aisyah and Young Sun for being such co-operative EXCOs who supported one another through horrible(events :P) times! Always remembered #TreeLoverClub

3. Amaths
Amaths has always been my bane since the start of sec 3,i made a blog post about it sometime ago i think but now i'm like cool with Amaths, he is no longer my archnemesis and enemy but a friend whom i've just come to know in time before O levels!

4. --- Clan
This is basically my Humanities Clan, we stick together during History and Literature lessons. We are very lame people but that's the reason why i love them so much because I THINK LAME IS FUNNY IF YOU DON'T AGREE THEN BOO YOU. that is also the reason why we change our name like 24/7 and we always make fun of Mahn Teng[PS. she thought Beyonce was WHITE if that isn't a crime i don't know what is] regardless of the shade, we are still close till this day, our inside jokes are mostly by yours truly,  I FEEEELZ HUMAN, and also at our naiveness at life. TING CLAN. I will never forget how lame we were during all our humans lessons and also our talks about the future and stuff :D:D

5. 304/404
This class. THIS CLAAAASSS. I can't really express how much this class means to me like we had so many ups and downs but at the end of the day we became like a can of sardines. When sec 3 started i thought we were the most awkward class like we were noisy and all but we weren't exactly noisy together you know what i'm saying? But everything has changed, it has turned 180 degrees for the best and i wouldn't mind spending one more year with you guys to make more memories but alas it is too late. All of you were such nice people, in your own way haha, and were really good friends to have. Wish you guys all the best in your O levels and MAKE THIS CLASS THE BEST!!! This class has always been competitive, especially in sports. I used to think that was a bad thing but i've come to the realisation that that is what makes this class special. A class like this is hard to find, a jewel polished at the very Heart of the Earth

Never 4gotten, Never 4saken

6. Bio-group/gang
Contrary to the name, we actually don't take Biology, in fact the 6 of us are the only people in my class who don't take Biology, thus every Bio period we get a free period. We usually spend our days talking about the most random stuff even occasionally having lunch together whenever bio is last period. This was also a group of friends whom i had very philosophical discussions about life, religion and other things with, aaaand of course all that ranting :D I remember how we shared our goals for the future and our dreams, i hope i'll be able to keep my end of the bargain of all of us being going on stage on results day, JIAYOUS ALL OF US!!

7. Fencerz
I'll always remember how noob we were in fencing back then, and i believe we have improved by leaps and bounds since then. I never knew how much you guys would mean to me until we stopped having fencing training this year. I really miss the lepaking during training with Melissa, Irdina and Casey and walks to 7-11 with the guys after training and the talking-about-life with Titus and Raynor on the LRT back home and of course Melissa, a friend whom i love to gossip with, we literally started a Titus-shipping business HAHA. Also now she plays ace attorney so WE LITERALLY ARE ON THE SAME WAVELENGTH IN GENERAL. Even though we didn't win any medals or trophies that brought glory in particular together, the friendships and memories forged go so much further than a simple metallic-coloured cup.

Ps. Missing Tae Won, Irdina and Cliven :D:D:D

8. Teachers
Teachers are an essential puzzle piece to any school, and to anyone's learning. Throughout my 4 years in BP i have encountered teachers who became very special to me. Of course i love all my teachers, but here are just a few who had a strong impact on my life and my growth as a person.

MISS ALINA.
Whoa, this teacher is an amazing teacher. Mention her name to any upper sec student in my school and you can see, feel and hear them tremble at the sound of her name. Probably because of her endless detentions for the smallest of things(Imagine going for detention because you missed ONE MCQ question on a worksheet, YEA ITS LIKE THAT). But at the end of the day, the effect she has on her students last a long time. She is extremely capable(i guess that's why she was made our year-head) and caring. My whole class adores her and i believe if she were to teach you chemistry for 2 years, you would feel the same way too.

MISS KANG.
This teacher is a different teacher. She isn't the type to work closely with the school and she has her own way of teaching. She is willing to go all out just to give us the very best she can give, even constantly telling us of her long hours spent making for us the most personal of physics notes. I've talked to her before and she does have a story: She was in RGS but she didn't do well for her O levels as she had spent too much time on her CCA -- NCC(Ripley's Believe It Or Not *epic jingle starts playing*)and ended up going to a poly(NOW WAIT, POLYTECHNICS WEREN'T FANTASTIC, UNLIKE NOW, BACK IN THE DAY OKAY, I MEAN I WANNA GO TO A POLY MYSELF SO DON'T SAY THAT I'M DISSING POLYTECHNIC EDUCATION) and didn't have the chance to go to her dream University: Harvard. It might not seem like it but she loves to study, she loves to learn and having that dream taken away from her like that is quite sad. Sometimes i feel bad just for letting her down, she put all her hopes on us and she is 'graduating' with us in the sense that she'll be leaving BP after our last paper. Truly a teacher worth respect and admiration.

MR OSGODBY.
A teacher, whom like my P6 English Teacher, left a strong impression on me. Unlike my previous English teachers, he doesn't focus or more accurately, he doesn't LIKE the technicalities of the English exam, he doesn't believe in an answer key even for the paper 2 practice papers! He has been teaching for almost 40 years(?) which makes his belief credible. He believes in learning English as a language, not as a subject and that really struck me as for 3 years English had always been learning about grammar and all that jazz that i don't really like. He gave me confidence in my writing skills again and is also one the reasons why i started this blog in the first place. His is rather laidback and always makes jokes in class(that are too cheem to understand and i have to fake laugh most of the time). He even gets angry when you DON'T get the joke which is all the more awkward for me considering how for 3/4 of the year i sat at the front of the class, directly in front of him every English lesson, if i hand't done all that laughing i would probably be on his black-black list by now haha.

MR PEACOCK.
A fabulous teacher who isn't afraid to voice out his opinions on about almost anything in class. From his confusion and Singaporeans, to how the Science Dept. and the Math Dept. don't work together and how our work doesn't make sense sometimes haha. He is expressive when he wants to make a point and isn't afraid to do whacky things to get us to remember stuff. My favourite memory of him will always be his rants and also his faith for me in AMath, he never gave up on me and i intend not to let him down in the coming exam!

 

MR WONG, MISS TANG, MISS SHIH AND ALSO MRS ANNA ONG HAHA.
These 4 amazing teachers have given new meaning to teacher-mentors. They guided all the council EXCOs in the right direction and since all are English teachers, have an amazing sense of humour and sarcasm. I always seem to be the target of all their insults though which i've come to pass as endearment hahahaha. I'll always remember how they helped push me and the EXCOs through tough times and kept up with our nonsense on a day to day basis :]

MISS TAY
Miss Tay ahha one word - epic. Really, one cannot describe her in words because you might need to hammer *wink wink* the words in!

 

9. Close friends
To end off this long post, i have to make a special mention to a few close friends of mine. 

LEE YORK TAT(aka EggTart or Tat)
Tbh i don't even know how the hell we actually met, i think it just kinda happened during our Printed Melodies glory days. We clicked quite fast and he soon became my best friend in upper secondary. This person is hella sassy and can be an occasional diva who doesn't even know what the heck he is doing but that makes him all the more good a friend. He's always worried about his studies even though he is pretty damn good at it, not to mention his house is literally in a complete mess 99% of the time, the 1% being before it got messy. We take the same subjects just that he takes Bio haha, so we were pretty much going all over the place together. We do the goofiest of shit together and though he claims he is introverted, i believe he is more of an extrovert than he thinks he is. He is Self-motivated to do well and excel, i wish him all the best in his studies IF NOT IMMA BITCHSLAP YOU ACROSS THE FACE WITH A SHOVEL.

MAX NG KAI SHEN(G?)
I didn't even know he existed until one day i swapped seats with Vignesh and sat beside him. Little did i know we would be table-mates for the next 1.5 years. Sometimes our ideologies clash and we always try to prove each other wrong on things. He can be naive as heck i mean let us examine the following examples: HE THOUGHT METHODIST CHRISTIANS WERE CATHOLIC - That is really all you need to prove how naive he can be ladies and gentleman. He is also Christian so we also talk about church-related stuff and God sometimes too. When he believes he is right about something he will believe it to the bitter end until i prove him wrong and then he just keeps quiet haha. I thank God for putting him as my seat mate as i learnt a lot of things from him, especially in A math because let's face it he is a science person. I also thank him for letting me laugh at him in class almost every day.
                                                    

In conclusion, memories are made, not found and i believe my 4 years were made by God to mould me

and Change me.

Godspeed,
Warrick


PS. FOR MR.OSGODBY'S, MISS.ALINA'S AND MR.PEACOCK'S PICTURE, BLOGGER HAS A PROBLEM SO JUST DEAL WITH AWKWARD HEAD TILTING KAY!!!
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"The town was paper, but the memories were not" - John Green, Paper Towns

Top 20(?)

HEy Readers!

Oh wow it has been such a long time since i have written anything on this blog, like about 3 months?!?! Talk about one hell of a hiatus imo. Sorry -TO SOME PEOPLE- if you've been complaining that i haven't been updating my blog, but i guess here i am after so long haha. So this post won't be about any of my embarrassing stories or whatever, but i guess it'll more or less be a summary of what happened to me over the past few months of life.

This calls for a top 20.(or top 13 in this case .-.)

(13)!!!!!

20. -continuation of last blog post- I ACTUALLY GOT AN A1 FOR MY LITERATURE MYE PAPER l0l. Well and another dude in my class got the same exact mark for history and lit but he got one mark higher than me for social studies so grr #humanitiesRIVAL

19. I sat for my Mother Tongue O level paper, all 4 of them including oral. (PS. i find it weird how oral exam is considered paper 4 like wut its just talking) and all i have to say is that i am PROBABLY not gonna get my A1 but who cares. My bro actually got a C6 for mother tongue in for his o levels yet look where he is now, An SMU Scholar and previously a Ngee Ann Poly Accountancy scholar so haha jokes on U Chinese.

18. Before my mother tongue oral i sorta forgot to bring my IC into the exam room so that was kinda embarrassing. I realised then that every Chinese national oral exam something weird would happen, last time for my PSLE it was that the examiners asked if i was Chinese after the CHINESE ORAL exam and i was like

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17.I'm actually starting to get the hang of Additional Maths with the help of my trusty Ten-Year-Series(TYS) and the mad number of math papers my teachers expect me to do every week(of course i don't do all of them don't be silly). So hopefully this prelims(tho obviously gonna be tough) i won't be a hopeless train wreck lol

16.For BP Day, which is a day where every class in BP gets to go out of school and have fun, my class went to a prata restaurant to learn how to make prata and also get eat serious pratas. They even gave each of us certs for that day hahaha 

(cute right ??)

15. I have been experimenting with new games lately, regardless of the daunting and intimidating fact that my o levels are in like less than 80 days, a gamer does what a gamer does and HE PLAYS. I've gone back to League since and got bored already, tried Swordsman online, but being the fickle-minded person i am, creating ten thousand characters is a must for me usually in every game but this game had the annoying thing whereby you had to wait like a full week before you could make space for another character and you only had 3 lame spaces. 

14.I watched the TFIOS movie with my friends and im sorry to say i actually didn't cry my eyes out in the cinema. See i'm a total weirdo, i cried when i got home. I was listening to All Of The Stars by Ed Sheeran and i just broke. the. hell. down like i don't know it was like my eye taps were jammed during the movie and the song just unclogged it beautifully. Since then i've read Paper Towns by John Green and i have to say Paper Towns beats all of his other books and is totally on par with Looking For Alaska.

13.I'm reading The Maze Runner by James Dashner now and i have to say the feels are already real. I mean i still don't know how Thomas is actually related to Teresa or anything but they are my current fictional OTP and i don't want any of them to die. To show how determind i am i didn't even go on Tumblr to check out their tag or anything to prevent spoilers(I might have spoiled myself about Minho tho :[[[[[[[[[) If they turn out to be fake or smth imma be pissed forreal.

12.I actually play the Kim Kardashian Game and i just love indulging in all the fame(tbh its more like tapping those blue stars to stardom!!!) Today i also found out that the Kim K game is like a total rip-OFF of another game known as Stardom:The A-List just that Kim K totally just changed it to include her as a famous ass person in the game and called it her own. Still fun though haha

11.I also play Summoner's war which is a very fun game especially since almost 70% of the guys in my class are playing the same game and unfortunately i'm the noobest of them all which is depressing :[[

10.I played DC Universe Online SEA for a period of time until i totally maxed out and just kept doing the same duos and solos till i got bored. I created a magic hero under the supervision of Wonder Woman which is totally cool and i chose to have nature powers which was basically my childhood dream come true :p

 9.Recently obsessed with danisnotfire simply because he's too awesome and also damn funny + sassy. His English is totally spot on and i highly recommend watching his videos if you wanna improve your English legit.

8.I gave my friend Max wrong information for a situational writing format that actually came out for the prelim paper today and i probably can never be on his trust list again because now everything i say is just deemed as "UNRELIABLE" ( Orz ).

7.I played Maplestory for the majority of my June Holiday. I created a MALE KANNA BC WHY NOT, and also because i like how he controls evil spirits and cool shit like that BUT besides that, i realised maple has become too easy. Like i made it to level 100 in practically less than 3 days but when i was like in primary school, leveling to mere 30 was like a huge ass achievement. Big Bang was cool and all but everything changed when the Black Mage attacked.(IF YOU GET THAT REFERENCE I LOVE YOU REGARDLESS OF WHO YOU ARE)

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So that was about all i could think about during this time span since Smite is updating and yea i play Smite now judge me wUdever. I'll probably continue with this list when new and more interesting things happen to me or at least i remember what happened to me during these past few months :D:D I won't end this blog post with a cheesy/emo line but i think i'll just stick to

bYe!

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#broombroom #getoutmecar

EXA(SIAN)MS

HEy readers!

So its been about 84 years since i've last blogged anything.

I CAN EXPLAIN. 

exams.

Okay exams are a fundamental part to ASIAN education because without them we just simply wouldn't be Asian enough gah. The entire past month has been just paper after paper after paper. Talk about some serious mental workout over here. The thing is that ITS NOT OVER :[[[[[[ My Chinese O-levels are on FREAKING 2nd JUNE and thats like 12 DAYS MORE DO U SEE MY TEARS?!?!?!?! The worst part is that even though i've attempted to study for chinese mid-years i still got a C grade which in my class is considered a SIN. Simply because my teachers expects us all to get As blah blah. But what she says makes sense though, because if i do manage (by some miraculous accident or whatever) to clinch my A this June, I WONT NEED TO TAKE MOTHER TONGUE DURING NOVEMBER AKA NO MORE CHINESE BABYYYYY. Now this is a lot to me because considering i already have Biology as a free-period, i'll have DOUBLE the slack/study time and that makes me happy :D:D:D

So now i just need to work hard la ahha after that imma relax for like a week before i start studying for my other subjects in particular A MATH bc i need help like this is a serious SOS situation. i have never ever passed A Math in my entire life, not even the first test in sec 3. I was thinking of dropping A Math but then i was like nah - math just need practice nia. Which is true however i am too lazy to practice something i have absolutely no interest in whatsoever. Speaking of Amath i just failed it for midyears once again yay?!?!?!?!

This year's mid-years have a been a complete mess because all the papers had some sort of dirty trick set by the teachers which cost a lot of us not only marks but our already-low-self-esteem-in-education. For English i expected an A2 at least but i got a B3 in the end because my summary had a 4/15 like yay me right?!?!?! And that pulled my beautiful A1 grade of paper 1 down to a stinking B3. Why am i so upset? Because English is one of the only 5 subjects i have confidence in scoring an A in and if i can't even get an A for this i crei. SERIOUS.

Speaking of which, i heard Miss Ling wasn't too happy with my class' RnJ paper and i am very worried for my Lit too D: (tip-off from a teacher i know haha)...

Anyway, for those out there that didn't do well for this year's mid-year exams, as encouragement i would like to say:

IT'S ONLY MID-YEARS PEOPLE.

Hope you feel encouraged because i do!!!!



Godspeed.

Holy Week†

HEy readers!

So this past weekEND has been greaaatt because it was holy week! Now for those non-Christians out there, holy week is basically when my faith celebrates Good Friday [The day when Jesus hung on the cross to die for our sins] and also Easter Sunday! [The day HE RESURRECTED OMG YAY!] So to start of this epic weekend i went home with a bag load-of-crap and tons of homework to do. The minute i went home i just conked on the bed and fell asleep like i just wanted to take the load from the week off of my back. When you know what happened that week you will understand why it was so damn -ugh_ish-:

1. Fencing Interschools = STRESS = came back home damn late that day
2. Physics SPA practice where i got a shelling from my Physics teacher BECAUSE I WENT FOR COMPETITION AND MISSED IT. And let me just tell you that she went on and on about me being too 'committed' about other stuff besides my education. It's not like i purposely want to pon her AFTER-school lessons (which she originally said was OPTIONAL) right, just that i damn sway all my stuff like investiture rehearsals and comp. dates all happened to fall on her extra lesson days and she scolded me for that?! She even accused me of saying i did not care about Physics and i might as well drop the subject BUT if i didn't care, would i have personally come to look for her after school and do my spa ALONE in the lab for a freaking hour and i didn't even know how to start. She even assumed the reason i asked my friends to ask her is because i was 'afraid of her scolding' when i really just wanted to contact her in the most convenient way possible: By texting, and my phone for some reason can't seem to send an messages to her. Well but she is still my favourite Physics teacher ever so i guess everybody has their bad days :[[[

So with that horrible start i just wanted to sleep. And i did, i slept.
Friday was more a less a limbo day for me because i wanted to attend the Good Friday service at my church however my family couldn't go and i don't like being the only non-family kid there during service, so i thought of the next best thing: The Passion Of The Christ. Now this movie is a must see for all Christians out there because it is a really good movie that brings you through the final hours before the cruxification of Christ on the cross. As a kid i watched several snippets during Sunday School but i never watched the full movie and it was really good and gruesome at the same time. The wounds that Jesus had were so severe you could even see the flesh inside [kudos to the makeup artist though] and it made me cringe thoroughly :S But after watching the whole movie i had this odd need to read the entire of Matthew and i could because i managed to wake up super early that day.

Saturday was a rather interesting day as it is when i attended my Baptism class and i got to know more about baptism and its implications in my life so that i really knew what i was going to commit my entire life to! After that fascinating 3 hours, i decided to stay for youth service and i did not regret despite having a crapload of homework undone. That day my pastor gave out a pamphlet regarding the Momentum Conference 2014, which is a conference for youth in Singapore and its focus this year will be about the LGBT, and where our stand as Christians are, with or against? Or is it somewhere in the middle, guess i'll have to find out on that day! This applies to me a lot because my favourite youtubers like Tyler Oakley and Kingsley are gay and i wanna know how i should deal with that fact? idk but i do know that i love gay people cus they are hella funny.

Oh and also i convinced my CG mate to play dragon nest [hallelujah?!?!]

Sunday was epiccccc because MY GRANDMOTHER GOT BAPTISED PRAISE THA LORD AMEN. The cool thing was that it took place in my aunt's Chinese Methodist church so the entire service was in complete Chinese. Now Chinese holds a special place in my heart as i have this love-hate relationship with it so let's just say worshiping and praying in Chinese was a completely different experience altogether :P

Well that's it! Holy Week for me in a nutshell. For some reason i re-downloaded all my hillsong tracks onto my phone because this week made me learn the importance of my faith, just like how i felt after one80 2012 ended but i do hope to maintain this zeal for a long time to come!

-Godspeed.

Z.ZZ.ZZs

HEy Readers!

Recently i've been encountering a serious problem with my life and i feel that it has been affecting me in probably the worst way possible... SLEEP.

Have you ever just gone home feeling super determined to do your homework and revise because you wanna get straight A1s for the upcoming O/N level exams, but then the moment you touch your bed it just calls out to you like some mind-controlling siren, its sweet allure just irresistible till the point where you just have to lie down for just a second...

-3 HOURS LATER-

and then your mom or somebody comes in and wakes you up but then you just

yea.

It has been happening to me for about a month know AND IT IS GETTING OUT OF HAND?!?!
Like idk i have never been so tired in my entire life before, i remember being an anti-nap kinda guy before sec 3 happened but i guess things change lol. Even my mom is getting damn sick of waking me up from my accidental naps, like she is genuinely pissed. Maybe recently with all the planning of my school's investiture and all i've gotten really tired, but i've stepped down already but the problem doesn't seem to be recovering anytime soon. Yesterday was really bad because my mom got so sick of it she actually sent my older brother into my room to annoy me till i woke up i swear i was just an angry grouch and i legit told him to fk off and now i feel bad because he was only trying to help ~oops~. And yesterday was one of those days where i was really free like FREE without any CCA or timeprac OR Kangster-lessons which made me oddly motivated to get down to some revision but obviously it didn't happen as i slept for like 4 hours and i hate myself :]]]

Not only that, i realise i have been sleeping a lot during my SS lessons, my friend says i kinda look like this every single time i fall a second into sleep 

How do i even still have friends, sometimes i just wonder.

Plus since Chinese Os are drawing near, my Chinese teacher is pounding us with homework, hard. I seriously need to devise some kinda master plan to get around this dumb habit but i really just don't know. I mean looking at these gifs of people sleeping make me wanna just sleep right now arghhh my eyes i can't.

Sorry if i had no quality content the past few weeks, it is mainly because of THIS problem that has been preventing me from updating my blog with kewl stuffzxc .-.

-Godspeed.

#RPOTD 4

HEy readers!

So if you are wondering "where is #RPOTD 3?!?!" well it is currently work in progress for my mortal in school haha. The idea of this poem came to my mind while i was jogging by the canal, it was horribly dark but sorta cool. Here it is, #RPOTD 4.

Life[Live]
I run for life.

A flickering lamp, clings on to life.

a gentle whisper of Wind
Her hands caressing my face,
the rush of freedom in my limbs
presence soul-soothing

rushing of Water, elegance like her sister.
ethereal maidens, oh the sight!
the shroud of serenity coats this very night.

The lamp gave in and faded into oblivion.

No! sisters, don't leave me... 
Please...

a ghostly echo emanates from the distance
the wails of mourning creeping through the air
a figure darts, diving into the dark dim 
an infant shrieks in terror,
cries of fear

glancing in curiosity,
i thought naught of it
staring into the murky depths of the canal
surfacing my blurry reflections.

Then i realized a single human could only have a single shadow.

Not.
Double.

strides.Leaping
heartbeat.Racing
breath.Intensifying 

crimson text lay ahead
a sentence of "Death :]" in blood red
the Maniac's laugh ringing in my ears
His footsteps drawing closer, the time nears.

I ran to live.
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So my first attempt at writing horror, hopefully it wasn't that bad :/

Till next time.